May-day

Well I guess it's time to update a bit about myself after not blogging for like more than a month !!

May wasn't one of the best month. Till now, I guess 2011 isn't a good year for me yet !!

I felt that I've grown up alot and things and people I used to not understand, I understand them now. I am now easily satisfied compared to last year. Last year I've had things went my way most of the time and I complain less. Little things can make me happy enough for a week because simply there's just too little good things going on lately. Highlight of the month was that I'm able to meet up Jeanette and Patrice !! and flop, was my money kept flowing away from me !!!
first I bought the flight ticket with wrong dates, then bought things which I don't need and I also lost bets from football =.=
Sometimes, we do things even thou we know it's wrong right ? it's call ‘犯贱’ !!
My english is terrible now !!　I've not been speaking english for a very long time and it sucks until I may have to take english course next sem =.=

At this point of time, I've only been looking forward to go home. At the same time, I also felt sad because I'm leaving such a fun working place where I get to enjoy alot and also get good money.

I've been happy with my colleagues, service, kitchen, been eating nice food. I will be back often because this is really one place I feel more like home in switzerland. I will miss how they call me Banana boy. Haha. What a stupid name, but then it sounded warm because only friends would do that, although they are 10 years and even older than me, but they were very nice people and most importantly we help each other out all the time.

I'm not very close with the owners, besides the daughter because she speaks english and also I'm learning alot of german from her !!
Going back this time, somehow it was not as excited as last december, maybe because i've finally settled here. But then there are also people I miss alot.
My grandfather has been lonely ever since my grandmother passed away, and last month i received news that my baby sitter passed away. All of the sudden, I felt my heart cracked abit, she wasn't old, she was healthy, i just saw her last december and I said I would come see her again, but I never thought that it turned out this way. She took care of me when I was young.
I've never done anything for her, and now she's gone just like that.
I don't want the same thing to happen to my grandfather, I will try to see him once every sunday, and have breakfast with him if possible once in a fortnight. I know he loves me a lot, among all grandchildren, I felt it. I love him too, but it's time to show him that.
i didnt give him more than 8A's in exam, no 1st 2nd or 3rd in class, now he just wants me to graduate and have a picture with him, and then get married. I guess it's not hard at all.

My parents, after working here, i know that they've worked hard, for many many years, maybe even cut on their personal expenses or food. I cannot repay them now but then I want to show them that I love them too. Having breakfast and dinner could be the best way to catch up with them because I don't see them any other times.

Also is Pei hua, where I can only spend one month or so with her. I wished I had more time but then, life must go on. Plans are coming but not one is confirmed yet. Maybe when they are, I am ready to feel excited to be back home again.

Gone

Few days ago i slept at 3am and i had to wake up at 9.45am to get ready for work.

Suddenly in the middle of my sleep i had this very weird dream.

I dreamed of a friend, a friend which was once closed to me, who understands me a lot and we always talked about our troubles until form 6.

I met her during Form4, through Chow Wing Hong, her name was Gan Lu Yuen. We both attended dance sessions together for a year. We were not that close at first, we just exchanged number because we go for the dance sessions together. After the dance sessions, sometimes her mother would fetch her home and sometimes she would walk back to AMC. We got closer when we started to walk back to our schools more often. We started sharing things, I was in a relationship, later on she also had a crush on another guy. We asked each other for opinions and also she would understand me very much, she was the first true friend which is a female that i had. We never got anywhere beyond that relationship. Although at one point of time before form 6 started, i had this little thought in my mind that she understands me very well and she has been a very good friend to me for such a long time, we share common interests and i admire her dancing a lot. I was indeed fond on her.

Then one day, chow asked me how was she because he had not contacted her for a very long time, so i just told him about her recent situations. At that point of time he immediately realized that i was into her.

Crap.

I told him off and i said no. Of course, he did not believed me because he knew me better than anyone of my friends. Coincidentally, Chow and Lulu bumped into each other just after a few days after we had this conversation. He was working at Blay in parade and Lulu passed by with her friends. And so they talked for a while and on that night, lulu asked me a question. A very odd one. I only remembered the content.

Chow started praising me in front of her, stating that i am a good guy, bla bla bla and CONSIDERABLE. so she asked me if there is something going on. Guess what, I lied. I rejected the idea that i was into her, she believed.

I guess.

and so she started to say things like, we are only good friends and stuff. Well, if i say i'm not sad after hearing those words i would be lying. Soon after that, I realized that it was just a game played between my mind and my heart. I broke up, she was there for me as a friend and that's it. Just that its the stupid habit of Pisces to start imagine things that 99.9% would not happen. Form 6 started and we kept in touch as always. When exams came by, we contact less, a good luck wish on trial exam, stpm, and after that the distance was even further.

Until i decided to come to switzerland had i realize that we've neglected each other. and so we went out one night just to have a drink near her house, with permission of Pei hua, i know it was hard for her, to be a little too generous on this but Lulu, she is an important friend to me, I had to bid goodbye to her at least face to face. and since that goodbye, we've never talked about what we've been through.

Until that dream came by.

We were both in a dance competition, with different teams.

She was angry at me,

( it was a dream and i dont know why she was mad at me too =.= )

and she wouldn't talk to me even when I wished her luck for her performance.

and so i was sad and i expressed that during my team's performance.

Eventually, my team got 3rd place and hers got champion.

and then the dream gets even weirder !!!

I fainted out of no reason and she wouldn't even see me when she knew.

and that was when i woke up.

6 something in the morning, feeling cold, hiding under my blanket.

then i thought for awhile, she has already gone.

out of my life for a very long time.

and i was saddened.

There was no real chance for me to catch up with her, every time i see her in msn or facebook, we talked less than 15 min and her replies was like haha, ya lor, and then offline-d.

must be the line in UPM.

Now all i know is that she is involved in a big and active chinese society and she is dancing again. At least i know she is doing what she love most.

I wish you all the best Lulu, all the way from switzerland.

Venezia & Milano

yoyoyo people :D

Italy was fun !! especially the weather !!! finally i see the sun !!!!!

omg i've been craving to feel hot and sweat for so so so damn long..

and now finally i get a 5 days off and relax..

phewww.....

so i was in venice on the 21st of march, we left bern 7.30am and reached venice 2pm..

walao eh.. cheap ticket ma.. what to do ? haha..

on the way there, me and gary just watch movie in the train..

because the scenery not very leng only.. haha..

VENEZIA

once again, like the last time i was in roma and florence,

finding roads in italy is complicating !!!

you can say i dont have sense of direction also because we took 2 hours to find our hostel..

we asked for directions and italians cannot speak english, some cannot differentiate left or right also lor..

=______________=

so we end up walking in venice for 2 hours and almost saw the whole city before reaching our hostel.. not to mention good workout as well.. haha..

when we finally reached i can finally put down my luggage and lie on the bed..

omg..

during our hostel-hunting mission, we passed by lots of restaurants, souvenir shops. and also gelati ice cream stalls !!! :D

of course i couldnt resist them and ate them everyday for my whole trip..

hoho.. delicious dao bao lor.. so many flavour and also cheap !!!

ta ma de in swiss want to buy ice cream also very expensive..

gam yun mm sik ah !!!!

hmm.. we didnt sit the boat or anything but just walk walk around venice only..

wanted to go out to the small small island but when we check in to hostel also 4pm liao..

suan ba.. bad planning..

leng jau gei leng har geh.. i also bought sun glasses tim..

but is super super sampah punya benda..

pakai tak sampai lima kali sudah tak boleh guna.. - -

as you can see at night is quite romantic geh..

unfortunately is 2 guys lor..

and nothing happen also lor.. haha..

2nd day 9am jau go to milan jor..

wa.. the food.. jeng dou bao lor..

although not much variety la..

mm hai pizza jau spaghetti, or pasta..

haha but still is very very nice lor..

just like the expression : 好吃到傻掉!!!

^^

after makan again we struggle to find our hostel in milan -.-

also took around 45 min to find it..

the place we stayed in milan turned out to be a guest house instead of a hostel..

it was like an apartment with 4 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms and a kitchen..

there is only 1 guy working there..

and he takes care of the place by himself.. he was very friendly..

always smiling and talking and asking questions and helping..

but then he very niang niang qiang..

haha.. dont say me sui ok ? i am not..

after gao dim check in then we went out to see see the city of milan..

compared to switzerland leh, of course swiss is cleaner and also much more efficient and punctual public transport la..

but in italy also quite fang bian also geh..

my ULTIMATE MISSION is to gap leng lui ga !!!

dim zhi swiss geh lui more leng lor..

disappointed =l

2nd day in milan we went to the central of milan.

where the GUCCI, PRADA, LV, DIOR, VERSACE are located !!!

walao eh.. also the duomo aka church very 壮观 !!

at the top of all the small small stick is a statue of a human,

very very amazing architecture and design.

and then i too busy to eat ice cream no time take picture also,

hahahahaha ^^

after that we walk that branded street !!!

you can see all the branded stuff !!!

and only the size of the shop also hak sei yan.. the price even more hak sei yan..

haha

most girls dream is to be able to shop at these shops right ?

haha.. got money duo hao ah..

i also want to buy these things for my mother sister and pei hua ah..

work more work more !! then i can afford liao..

buy 1 gucci bag 800++ euro..

vomit blood leh.. although cheaper rm300++ if buy in malaysia still macam hisap darah leh..

haha

AND STILL NO LENG LUI LOR !!!!

walk rich street but cannot see leng lui leh..

all also aunty.. haih..

after that i went to San Siro !! football stadium !!!!!!!!!!!!

but no one interested de la

-.-

better dont write la

so i stop here la

p.s : i still sad lor you all forget my birthday =(

我就是这么小气的

怎样？

you get motivated by DOING things,

not thinking about them.

人在远方

渐渐被遗忘

March 13th 2011

well..

today i was punished because i wished to take a photo with a gui mui..

it didnt happen and then it went on to be the worst birthday ever..

so

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instead of the bad things, i guess i should only remind myself of the positives one..

12am : talking on the phone with my sweet heart.

1am : talking on the phone with my honey.

2am : still talking =)

3am : watching how i met your mother season 4

4am : sleep

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1pm : woke up =D

2pm : got out to get my favorite KEBAP !!!

3pm : watching how i met your mother again ^^

4pm : ted's bride ran away with another guy !!! wtf !!!!

5pm : go to work

end of story.

so this is how it should be remembered. =)

so that the worst birthday ever did not happen.

at least i pretend it did not happen.